I think I finally have it figured out. I will always be as much in love with you as I was that perfect Friday, when we went on five first dates and I tried to guess when you would kiss me. I think I'll always be at that point, because that was before I figured out I could never have all of you. There have been so many times my heartbeat quickened as my phone vibrated from a text you sent. Whenever I hear your ring tone, I get excited and I can never tell if I'm out of breath from the stairs into your apartment or because I am excited to see you. I made all these plans in my head before considering anyone else into the equation, even you. There is no place I like more than being in your arms, or that look you give me as you kiss me on the forehead. I think that as the summer fades away, we realize that while everything is great between us,  we don't really know what the fall and winter hold for us. My eyes aren't always meant to be that beautiful shade of blue they only ever are after I've been crying.