I've gotten accustomed to waking up ridiculously early on the weekends with no idea how or why that happened. Usually I can fall back asleep, but this morning I kept dreaming I was going to be late for one of the 900 things I have to do tomorrow. I find it strange how for 23 hours of the day, I feel numb towards almost everything, but as soon as the prospect of being late happens to me in my sleep, I start freaking out. Speaking of that.. I have become the most indecisive person in the world, and I hardly recognize myself. I know that what I want is not necessarily the best thing for me. I'm not letting that get in the way of trying to do what's best, but when I'm trying to do what's best, I think of anything but that. That doesn't even make sense to me, the person writing it, so why would I be able to explain how I'm feeling to someone who asks me. It's not really an awful awful thing though.. It makes it a lot easier to focus on doing what I want to do at the moment, since there's not much there to cloud that. So, what I want to do right now is study next summer somewhere abroad- preferably Australia, but maybe London or Italy. Instead of working on a ton of review guides and other shit I have to do this week, I'm comparison shopping for a new place to call home.