Tuesday, August 2, 2011

just some things.

"To live would be an awfully big adventure" -JM Barrie

I have come to realize, perhaps more suddenly that I would have liked to, about how life has a tendency to play out. Just yesterday, I was waking up and leaving my house for the first indefinite period of time, and beginning my journey at college. Before I know it, it'll be time to leave the world I have come to know and be so fond of. And I suppose this all is fine, because for the first time in a while, some sort of adventure seems extremely attainable. That now, if not ever, is the perfect time to do something just because I feel like it. There is nothing holding me to one place or thing other than commonality and some minors thing called money and getting accepted into graduate school. You miss one hundred percent of the shots you don't take. So why not?

I have learned that no matter how hard you work or fight for something, sometimes it's just plain broken and was never worth the effort from the start. That is probably the single most exhilarating and soothing realization you can come to. To simply throw something away, whether literally or figuratively, after you have spent an agonizing amount of time to try and mend it so it will just work for once, is wonderful.

Listen. Listen listen listen, because there will come a time when you regret not having listened closely enough, when a detail has disappeared and you can't simply call up the person and ask them to elaborate anymore. If only it were possible to remember every funny story, piece of advice, or comment, perhaps we would not feel so lost ourselves after losing someone we love.

Fall in love with the world in a way you have never looked at it before. Something about the universe seems a lot lighter than it used to, and I'm not truly sure I know why. Each morning seems a little brighter than the last, despite disappointingly cloudy and rainy summer days.

Although none of my thoughts lately seem to follow any sort of organized process or structure, maybe it's because there seems to be so much life to be living, that to waste any time on formalities would be a shame.